Mental Note to Self: Get more sleeping pills!!!!!!!!

I have not been able to sleep ... even though my body felt like it's falling apart. I have been checking my whatsapp every few seconds for the past few hours.

Alter Ego: "Here's a knife. Go kill yourself".

Me : You do it first.


Pro: This is how deeply attached i am to my partner. This invisible link between us that is so strong that i don't know how to describe.

Cons: I need to learn how to train my mind and my heart not to be so weak.